I Wonder

<br>All alone the broadening skies <br><br>Under the every night I will lie <br><br>Scratching claw and grip the rails <br><br>Every day my living hell <br><br>Oh God you know I`ve tried <br><br>I know how hard I tried <br><br>and oh I tried...... <br><br>Hey I`d like to daze away to a <br><br>Place like no one has known <br><br>In a state of mind I could call mine <br><br>That only I could own <br><br>Where I could hum a tune anytime <br><br>I choose, and then there is no such thing as time <br><br>Where I can feel no pain just calm and sane <br><br>What a place for one to find <br><br>Now you see I`m watching everything <br><br>I do and they`re watching everything I say <br><br>Why wont they leave me be? <br><br>Why am I even here? I wonder <br><br>You leave me wondering <br><br>Won`t you stop watching me <br><br>I said they`re watching me, watching me, watching me <br><br>Now in my corner I got the ceiling in my eyes <br><br>Arms holding up my knees <br><br>And rocking back and forth my life <br><br>I didn`t mean to feel this way <br><br>When I walked into the door, Lord <br><br>Then they ripped away my memories <br><br>And I cant remember who I was before. <br><br>And I only wanted to be 16 and free. <br><br>......and I wonder.