I Do Not Want This

I`m losing ground you know how this world can beat you down I`m made of clay I fear I`m the only one who thinks this way I`m always falling down the same hill bamboo puncturing this skin and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I`m drowning in 2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this don`t you tell me how I feel don`t you tell me how I feel don`t you tell me how I feel you don`t know just how I feel I stay inside my bed I have lived so many lives all in my head don`t tell me that you care there really isn`t anything, is there? you would know, wouldn`t you? you extend your hand to those who suffer to those who know what it really feels like to those who`ve had a taste like that means something and oh so sick I am and maybe I don`t have a choice and maybe that is all I have and maybe this is a cry for help I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this don`t you tell me how I feel don`t you tell me how I feel don`t you tell me how I feel you don`t know just how I feel I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters