Why

I am not here I think I`ve never been here at all or ever will I feel like a place where no one goes anymore why can`t you see that everything`s broken? and why can`t you see that my life`s turned gray? I can`t believe in anything sacred when I don`t believe that I am real it seems so bizarre but none of this matters thoughts disappear and hopes have died but now i am safe nothing can hurt me here why can`t you see my need for forgiveness the truth and the lies so confused as one I can`t believe in anything sacred when I don`t believe in anything I am alone locked in my memories there`s nowhere left for me to hide but I am not real I`ve made all I am with lies why does it seem that everything`s different? and why does it seems that only you are real? I don`t believe in anything sacred so why do I feel so damned alone? (chorus) I need someone to break the silence screaming in my head and in my soul