Just Enough To Love You

<br>Push me out from the darkness<br>To a sky that`s colored blue<br>Somewhere someone`s finding happiness<br>While I`m still here so hung up on you<br><br>Nothing is real<br>And I want you to know<br>That I`m not alright<br>When you tear open my chest<br>I`ll try not to flinch<br>Won`t make promises<br>You taught me that I`m still losing what`s left out<br>My self esteem<br>And I`m still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams<br><br>The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most<br>So I`ll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you`ll even know<br>The easiest thing to fake`s a feeling to fool someone else<br>And I`ve been tricked for so long by you<br>that I spent these last few months in my own hell<br><br>A failed apology<br>A day too late but now I see<br>That all you really want`s to see me dangle neck first from a tree<br>But what would you need me for<br>You`ve got friends galore<br>And all you`ll ever be to me`s a stupid lying excuse for a person<br><br>I could call<br>But I know that you won`t be there to pick up the phone<br>You don`t have time for me<br>I could call but I know you won`t get the phone<br>Don`t have time for me<br><br>I hate myself<br>For loving you like this<br>I hate myself for hating myself<br>Just enough to love you<br>Just enough to love you