Self destructor

<br>I`ve been living without a face so I can`t face the day<br>Civil war behind my eyes I`m the only one to blame<br>Take a step back and run and hide<br>I`m looking for an enemy or a friend from deep inside<br><br>My self destruction increases my cred<br>I need to be real and I need to be fed<br><br>As broken as an unloved skateboard at the lost and found<br>As tired as a rabid dog waiting at the pound<br>I like to live and I`ve got reasons to destroy<br>Try to stand the test of time, my mind is not a toy<br><br>My self destruction so easily led<br>No need to now I`m wrecked inside my head<br><br>Wake up to this self abuse this trait is not a crime<br>I`ve seen the way to live with poison everything turns fine<br>Listen up to the soft words to myself<br>Time to ignore these little voices and pretend I`m someone else<br><br>Monitor my intake and I`ll document this time<br>Give me something to believe in give me cheap-arsed wine<br>Self destructor gripping onto what life there`s left to live<br>What`s the point in giving up when there`s nothing left to give