Grouch`s Prayer

[sample from some movie]<br>"I just wanna know, don`t you believe in God anymore?"<br>"Well, my faith is gone. To answer your question, <br>yes I do believe in Jesus. <br>Yes, I do believe in God, but do I love him?"<br><br>[Grouch]<br>I`m lost upon this voyage and I`m searching for truth.<br>They told me to believe, but I want to see the truth.<br>I`m tired of your lies, so now you feel my anger.<br>How could I ever trust my soul with a stranger?<br><br>Now, dear Mr. Bigshot, let me ask you a question.<br>Put you on the stand,<br>raise your right hand.<br>I want to hear your confessions.<br>My family is stressing out `cause there`s nowhere else to go.<br>We`re looking for a higher power. You dodge, just hit us low.<br>In church they said that it was free.<br>Your love would always be.<br>I`m steadily giving mine, but where is yours for me?<br>I couldn`t see it, so I stray.<br>You took my dreams, I prayed.<br>I wanted to get them back, but you laughed and I`m afraid<br>I made the wrong decision.<br>You killed my hopes and visions.<br>I thought you had arisen,<br>but this is more like prison.<br>I`m giving my all daily and maybe it`s all for nothing.<br>I never hurt anyone, so why do you keep me suffering?<br>I stay tough and you lay it on<br>thicker and I say it`s wrong.<br>I`ll play this song `till you answer,<br>give you another chance to appear<br>`cause we dying out here. I see no light.<br>All I ever did was care and try to do what the fuck was right.<br><br>I`m lost upon this voyage and I`m searching for truth.<br>They told me to believe, but I want to see the proof.<br>I`m tired of your lies, so now you feel my anger<br>How could I ever trust my soul with a stranger?<br>( x2 )<br><br>I trained all my life for it.<br>I would have died for it.<br>Man, you took it from me,<br>bully crummy friend,<br>got the nerve to say I`ve sinned?<br>I tend to feel abandoned `cause you left me in the dark.<br>The light of my life was gone and I`m searching for a spark.<br>Sure, the mark of the beast is near,<br>so we`re all living in fear.<br>Noone holds a clear head,<br>so people appear dead for a reason<br>and I`m breathing.<br>Not even demons scare me.<br>Is it necessary to panic?<br>By now I feel prepared. See, I planned it to be one way, but of course it <br>never works,<br>forever quirks within the system.<br>Am I a victim or a jerk?,<br>with a sickened spurt of questions,<br>guessing without your blessing,<br>testing my own limits. I can feel the walls compressing<br>and within it I ain`t shit, but to me I`m all there is.<br>Sometimes I hate my life when I look at the next man and compare his to mine<br>and it is the time for me to rise, so let me.<br>They labelled me a child of God, so help me or forget me.<br><br>I`m lost upon this voyage and I`m searching for truth.<br>They told me to believe, but I want to see the truth.<br>I`m tired of the lies, so now you feel my anger.<br>How could I ever trust my soul with a stranger?<br>( x2 )<br><br>[another sample (probably the same movie)]<br>"I don`t care if you`re a preacher, a priest, a nun, a rabbi, or a Buddhist <br>monk. Many, many times during your life you will look at your reflection in <br>the mirror and ask yourself: `Am I a fool?`<br><br>(Simultaneously played:)--"And then, one day, you`re just going to wake up <br>and say `fuck him`."<br> --"I`m not going to relapse. What I`ve <br>experienced is closer to awakening."<br>"I didn`t say `fuck him`."