One Big Apology

I look in the eyes <br>of my drunk friends<br>and I see my father <br>and it weighs me down<br>they don`t know whether they love me <br>they won`t fight me<br>or how much they`ve hurt<br>and it weighs me down<br><br>It`s just one big apology<br>It`s just one big apology<br><br>how do you work up so much emotion<br>oversomething that`sover<br>once now (?)<br><br>how do you make things bigger <br>make things smaller<br>to get where your going<br>or think you are<br><br>It`s just one big apology<br>It`s just one big apology<br><br>I thougt my way around it<br>I`ve thought of all these things<br>I thought if you could save<br>you could own a life (?)<br><br>The siren gets the bad rep<br>when she brings sinners in<br>yeah, they should all know better<br>but thery`e just finding better things