What If...?

When will my luck change<br>When will this feel less as strange<br>When will this be just a dream<br>When will things be what they seem<br>With every breath that I take<br>With every mistake that I make<br>Why did I have to walk away<br>I regret it every day<br><br>All alone is how I feel<br>I hope to god this aint real<br>But when I don`t wake from my fears<br>The thought of this brings me to tears<br>Why can`t life be just a breeze<br>Live through all of it with ease<br>Why does this have to be so hard<br>The joker is my only card<br><br>These endless days they slowly fade<br>My own dispair I have made<br>All these moments that I miss<br>I am sick of all of this<br>Everything has become so sad<br>It`s no surprise I feel this bad<br>I wonder why I exist at all<br>There`s nowhere else for me to fall<br><br>It`s become too hard to fake smile<br>And has been this way for quite a while<br>How can I make amends<br>Cause all i want is this to end<br>Taking time to make life worse<br>I must be tainted with a curse<br>A change of time a change of place<br>A change of look apon my face