Jade

<br>Face black another shadow of innocence tainted<br>Gave back all the lights and glitter<br>Wrong track again and again is stings<br>Wish you all could feel like this<br>12 is for the reason of regret<br>9 is for the pain that I`m caused<br>Will strife ever cease? Someday...<br>Fuck this mind that is made to hate<br>Complete the task of humility<br>Restrained from who they want me to be<br>That`s what they want me to be<br>That is not quite good enough for me<br>Fuck you and your thoughts on me<br>Fuck you and your thoughts of me<br>Fuck you how can I not be me<br>Fuck you I will never let you take me<br>I will never be that good little one<br>I can never see what is so good about life<br>I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing<br>My hands fell down now I know I failed<br>You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale<br>Maybe I should just end all this right here<br>Would you like that?<br>Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded<br>I am staying here to betray all of you<br>Never failing me again<br>Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?<br>I`m going to save me<br>My eyes turn the color jade<br>I look at everyone around me<br>I am so sick of this place<br>Anyone and anything makes me sick<br>I just want to end it all<br>I return to my room walls white with black shades<br>Oh how would red look?<br>The reasons are not for your ears<br>The feelings are not for your heart<br>I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming<br>Can I find a way out besides this?<br>I need it<br>I want to be where you are<br>I miss you