Illadelph Halflife

[Ursula Rucker]<br>Fuck.. kill.. and prosper<br>is the gospel of Wonderland, where<br>street sands, are quick.. <br>to suck you down to the abyss<br>with the lure of pure bliss if you kiss the dicks<br>of the niggaz? Never.. Nosferatu`s<br>Those witches and warlocks in blue<br>Government gumshoe, keepers of the First Zoo<br>Who? .. Me? .. <br>I`m the modern day vixen vampire slayer<br>Unauthorized player, in the capitalist contest<br>to see who "Gets Money"<br>No milk and honey, in this land<br>cause justice has been banned<br>So it`s play dirty or die by the hand<br>that`s holding all the guns<br>Plunged, deep into religion was my first decision<br>To save me and my daughter`s lives, but<br>I can`t thrive off spirit and scripture<br>The picture grew clearer; I made the move to rear her<br>in a life wanting for nothing<br>so I got into this drug thing<br>Not doing, but dealing<br>Sealing fates and, healing struggle gaped, wounds<br>of the doomed became my mission<br>Izm was just too small time<br>I had to find the best design to<br>fuck with the massive motherfuckers minds, and pockets<br>So I sold ? kits and, alleyway thigh splits for two bits<br>and, five year old preschool pussy<br>and, once strong now bony backs and stretched out<br>weary racks of snatch, in other words..<br>.. I sold crack<br>Morality was buried deep, beneath the new Jeep,<br>silk sheets and money heaps<br>Still the good mother, I sent my daughter off to<br>boarding school to keep shit under cover<br>All the while envisioning myself, a champion of ghetto causes<br>plus his, game I was playing, and winning<br>While sinning, against myself and soul to get the gold<br>I was the Female Don, the Crack Queen<br>To me I seemed unstoppable, my coffers full<br>I went buckwild, wanting more<br>like the pipe worn whores I began to deplore<br>No time for playing with my coochie<br>counting my man`s mad lucci<br>while he was up inside some hoochie`s loose piece<br>I signed the checks and, I counted out the cash<br>Wasn`t saving ass for no niggaz sent upriver<br>I thought my shit was tight..<br>.. til my empire started to quiver<br>Taking every chance, under surveillance, being listened to<br>And watched, like Assata Shakur<br>My place on the top was no more sure<br>Loose lips flipped the script<br>The fantasy trip, swiftly ended<br>It took no time to blend in, with the population prison<br>My jaded vision, busted like a cherry<br>Every, dream I had, now tainted bad<br>I fucked and, I killed, to prosper<br>Upheld each tenant, of the ghastly gospel<br>Shift to a different Wonderland to pay the price for my vice<br>A land of fields to toil in like slaves<br>No lillies in this field just plenty of souls to save<br>Plenty of fat uniformed rats with<br>below average size cocks that slither<br>through cell locks, in the night<br>Lactating tits being licked, left and right<br>Plenty of coochie, burning with desire<br>Like black churches in the South<br>Black prayers and pussy on fire<br>Penned up behind barbed wire<br>Me and my fellow female mammals, animals<br>Bitches in cages, bodies racked with hormone rages<br>Minds haunted by our children`s faces<br>They mace us, with promises of rehabilitation slash corruption<br>Place smoking guns in empty hands of, native sisters and sons<br>I joined in this nation`s favorite pasttime<br>on a quest to gets mine<br>Now I`m passing time standing on line<br>in the commissary to buy Maxi-Pads<br>instead of shopping at Barney`s for Chanel bags<br>Nana who raised me, went to bed a-dazed<br>via my mistakes, and my daughter hates<br>me for what I did<br>And I`m FUCKED.. and I`m STUCK<br>Doing the Devil`s bid<br>Being locked in a moral corrupt crib<br>Psst.. missing my kid.. psst.. hey girl,<br>you wanna get finger fucked tonight?<br>I swear I`ll stick it in and up tight just right<br><br>Yo sis.. I`ve had to kill and shit<br>Just blow my head pretty and I`ll give you a slip<br>ALRIGHT LADIES, LIGHTS OUT!