Guilt

<br>guilt is growing in my head<br>building on a painful past<br>distorting all I think and see<br>my mask is your reality<br><br>innosense on it`s own<br>among the tempting forces<br>i`d so much like to fit in<br>but i`m a victim of society<br><br>our depreciated world<br>one big chicken house<br>filled with selfishness<br>is growing worse<br>hypnotized, then wide awake<br>I had to shift the blame to me<br>then sliding into<br>a sickening pit of beastial pleasure<br>performed my fear and fantasy<br><br>forgot about reality<br>acted compulsive, non-intentionally<br>bear the truth deep in me<br><br>unstoppable, on the first impulse<br>desperate, the only way to forget<br>immediate, relief, social isolation<br>bitterness, the price of control<br><br>now living with the burden<br>in my callous brain<br>reliving this certain crime each day<br>my punishment is here to stay