It Never Felt Like This Before

<br>You can`t hear me speak<br>`cause I am mute<br>I hide too many things<br>I need a place to hope<br>I need your help to hope again<br><br>You see a laughing boy<br>This is not true - only a mirage<br>I can`t conceal my fear<br>I have to be sincere<br><br>[Chorus:]<br>There is no way to forget<br>I broke your heart when I ran away<br>You didn`t know what to do<br>I was only a stupid boy<br><br>When I look back now<br>I never felt so bad<br>To know that I`ve hurt you<br>Is worse than to break<br>Is worse than everything<br><br>Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless<br>I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene<br><br>I`m so afraid of myself<br>I`m so afraid of being here<br>I say sorry but it`s not enough<br>I`m so afraid of losing my thoughts<br><br>[Eldron, August 2001]