Collapsed

<br>Used thoughts<br>Second thoughts<br>Compact thoughts<br>No longer the one you were<br>Become and play your role<br>Who goes for the throne must go for the king<br>This matter is not overdue<br>Still no change to see in your self-absorption<br>And the animal runs amuck<br>Getting stronger<br>I start taking pleasure in these thoughts<br>But is it real or just a lie<br>A need<br>Demanding discipline<br>Love of order accused<br>In an inner-war<br>The dependence and the selfishness strengthened<br>But unacceptable<br>My unsecureness makes it feel safe<br>Any thought is a declaration of love<br>Any anticipated joy<br>On the outbreak<br>The crushing firmness hardens<br>A bit of pain<br>A bit of overloaded<br>And I live again<br>Self-confidence of the undestroyable<br>The power of the inferior winner is<br>The might of the motor inside<br>The secret in my head<br>If it is too fast it does not matter<br>Because the hole becomes bigger<br>Any lie takes its revenge<br>Any illusion is going to devour me<br>One step too far<br>Or maybe two steps behind<br>Is it more than you have ever had<br>Ever been<br>Ever known<br>A sense I do not know<br>And I will never know<br>Relax and drift above<br>I am sure you will love the joke<br>Please trust a man who would never lie<br>The one you have passed by with your innocence<br>Your eyes you have open wide<br>You will need to cry<br>Smiles sounding between my words<br>A child that dies to live like a gentleman<br>A prison-guard<br>A prisoner<br>A sense I will never know<br>And never give to you<br>Finally you start drinking<br>As you swallow you grow up<br>Filling yourself with yours<br>It is good to become yourself<br>Push and restart<br>Clear up your picture<br>What hurts can be killed<br>The meal gets your own taste<br>You are prospering<br>Enjoying every single step<br>Every new refreshing breath<br>Milking your life<br>You feel the changes begin<br>Is the secret the remorse afterwards<br>I pay your price<br>Anyway but I have to give more than my megalomania<br>I am going to fail<br>That is a part of the role<br>Or is there less<br>Than I can see<br>No answers<br>Will this eternal wandering end<br>Will I live<br>Or is this life<br>No answers<br>Through confrontation<br>I will find a way<br>And I will do so<br>The animal inside<br>The beast<br>The maniac<br>That is what it is for<br>My victory is his death<br>His existence to give me sense<br>And to die on my birth<br>So I will kill him!