Song For My Mother

<br>In the hollow of your arms<br>Snuggled up safe and warm<br>You used to tell me tales of unicorns and kings<br>But how could I comprehend<br>All the things you told me then<br>Of your maddness and your struggling<br>My mind would swim in fantasies<br>Like a piece of driftwood on the sea<br>I had no touchstone for reality<br>You were my reality<br>Like a dark and unlit room<br>Or the far side of the moon<br>Your insanity spoke emptiness and fear<br>No matter how I tried<br>How I questioned and I pried<br>I just could not penetrate that thin veneer<br>And I know you tried to comfort me<br>To soothe and reassure me<br>But then your strength would always fail<br>And in it`s place a silken veil<br>Like a dried and wrinkled prune<br>A deflated toy balloon<br>I came home and found you strewn across the floor<br>And as they lay you on your bed<br>I heard you say "If I am dead,<br>How come it just keeps on hurtin` more and more"<br>And you left me in the early spring<br>All they said was "Mommy`s resting"<br>And how was I to know so young<br>It wasn`t something I had done<br>So please try and understand<br>I will love you as I can<br>I do not blame you, you`re not guilty<br>But still theres no way to describe<br>The relief I finally found<br>Upon learning it was you<br>And not me<br>That was crazy