Suicide Hotline

[Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]<br>(Suicide Hotline, may I help you?)<br>Yeah...uh...well I`m `bout to fuckin` kill myself<br>(Listen, you don`t wanna do that, okay? You don`t wanna do that)<br>I`m gonna..eh...there`s so many fuckin` reasons why<br>I don`t even need to be here anymore (There`s no reason..)<br>I`m gonna put a slug in my fuckin` head!<br>(You don`t wanna do that, you wanna be here on Earth okay?)<br>Fuck that shit man! I got a gun right now..(Put it away)<br>And I got it right under my chin man, fuck that!<br>(Take it away from your chin)<br>I`m gonna fuckin` blow my head all over the ceiling<br>(No you`re not..okay?)<br>Fuck this shit man..<br>(Hey, just talk to me, okay?)<br><br>[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]<br>It ain`t no point to me wakin` up<br>Everybody`s time I`m takin` up (Noo)<br>I got nobody, it ain`t a shoulder near<br>I can`t stay here and it`s colder there (Where?)<br>I don`t wanna look back `cause it`s gonna hurt<br>I slice my wrists and it`s gonna squirt (Ooh)<br>For me, everybody holds a hate<br>I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake<br>It`s no roads to take, I`m in a circle drive (Ooh)<br>Bustin` at myself and I`m tryin` to survive<br>I`ll disappoint you, and I will let you down<br>And I ain`t got many home boys comin` around (No?)<br>You don`t understand, so don`t say you do (Oh yes I do)<br>I swear I`ll put a motherfuckin` slug in you (Now now)<br>I`m the only one, the lonely one<br>at home alone, loadin` a gun thinkin` why not?<br><br>[Suicide Hotline Operator]<br>Why not? Why you wanna die?<br>Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay?<br>I understand that, feelings lead to depression<br>When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart<br>Okay? And your heart means everything to the world, okay?<br><br>[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]<br>I got court comin` up, I stole the truck<br>I got a bitch pregnant and I`m broke as fuck<br>I wanna get high but I got piss test (Well..)<br>I`m always first name on top of the shit list (Noo)<br>Get this, the Witch has made my chest<br>It`s permanent nightly visiting nest (What?)<br>It ain`t no clothes that I look good in<br>I`m the motherfuckin` big red train that couldn`t<br>I got no family, I stole they shit (Okay)<br>Restraining orders and I still won`t quit<br>I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole<br>and then I fell through the floor of that hole some more<br>I been missing for a year, nobody`s lookin` (I am)<br>I got beat down and my shit tookin` (Ooh)<br>I look ahead and all I see is more of the same<br>or this self inflicted bullet hole pourin` my brain<br><br>[Suicide Hotline Operator]<br>Oooookay, I understand that you`re in pain, okay?<br>I understand everything you`re going through<br>I`ve been there myself, okay?<br>Now, your pain is my pain, alright?<br>And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend<br>Just me and you, friends<br><br>[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]<br>I dream about cuttin` heads off with a shovel (What?)<br>The dreams are gettin` serious, think I`m in trouble (Oh my..)<br>I don`t hold memory for more than an hour<br>I`m tired as fuck and I`m drained of power<br>I ain`t half way there and I`m all outta time<br>I`m like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine (Oh no..)<br>I been around the world but no place is home<br>I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome<br>I`m butt naked, I been jackin` off gettin` drunk<br>It`s my last hours alive, who gives a fuck? (Me)<br>It don`t matter, I`m doin` the shit in the garage<br>Tryin` to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage<br>This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me<br>Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me (Wait, wait..)<br>I`m `bout to do it (*beep*)<br>Can you hold for a second? (Wait a min..)<br><br>[Violent J + Girl]<br>Hello?<br>(Hey, what`s up?)<br>Where you at?<br>(Right down the street)<br>With who?<br>(My girl Shannon, we were wonderin` if we could stop by)<br>Well shit, yeah, come on by<br>(Really?)<br>Yeah..hey hey hey hey.<br>(I know, bring some blunts alright)<br>(*chuckle*) Alright, bye