Darkness

<br>i`m scared of swimming in the sea <br>dark shapes moving under me <br>every fear i swallow makes me small <br>inconsequential things occur <br>alarms triggered <br>memories stir <br>it`s not the way it has to be <br><br>i`m afraid of what i do not know <br>i hate being undermined <br>i`m afraid i can be devil man <br>and i`m scared to be divine <br>don`t mess with me my fuse is short <br>beneath this skin these fragments caught <br><br>when i allow it to be <br>there`s no control over me <br>i have my fears <br>but they do not have me <br><br>walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods <br>the deeper i go, the darker it gets <br>i peer through the window <br>knock at the door <br>and the monster i was <br>afraid of <br>lies curled up on the floor <br>is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy <br><br>i cry until i laugh <br><br>i`m afraid of being mothered <br>with my balls shut in the pen <br>i`m afraid of loving women <br>and i`m scared of loving men <br>flashbacks coming every night <br>don`t tell me everything`s alright <br><br>walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods <br>the deeper i go, the darker it gets <br>i peer through the window <br>knock at the door <br>and the monster i was <br>afraid of <br>lies curled up on the floor <br>is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy <br><br>i cry until i laugh